Sonntag, 24. Februar 2013

8th week - the warrior and the bitch...

I've been in Austria for 10 days now to visit my family and friends - and it has been perfect! My days were tightly packed with fun and happy reunions and no time could've been wasted. And then there was this one incident when a dear friend of mine didn't show up...
I was upset and angry and very emotional - so I sat down to meditate and find out what it was that was REALLY going on.

And I realised, I was tired and ready to go to sleep and could have been happy about not having to meet anybody for that evening. But there was this other part of me, that just LOVED to be angry and feel rejected and have somebody to blame. (This is what Eckhart Tolle calls the "Emotional Pain Body" btw.) So I tried to let go of that lust for pain - and it was really really hard!

In Yoga, this week I had to add Warrior III pose to my practice - I'd known this pose before as a very hard and for me challenging balancing pose. And this is what I told myself: Oh my god, Warrior III! I hate balancing poses and I'm so terrible at balancing and ALWAYS fall out of every balancing pose. I will definetly fall out of Warrior III all the time! I'm just never going to get it right. Am I crap at yoga? ...
I lamented on and on and on - my dear Emotional Pain Body was happily active and couldn't get enough.

Again I tried to calm down and just do yoga - and I did it! I stayed in Warrior III and I fell out of Warrior III - and I realised, it doesn't really matter!
In yoga - as in life - the only thing that matters is the now. No preparation for dreadful things or blowing things out of proportion needed! With this in mind, happiness comes natural! And so does Warrior III over time :-D

Much Love!

PS: I will post the pictures of the new poses soon - let me get back home first! ;-) <3

Sonntag, 17. Februar 2013

7th week - head in the clouds

Mr. Iyengar suggests to repeat every pose of the weeks 5 and 6 and hold them a little longer in week 7. My blog is about everything Mr. Iyengar says concerning the 300-week-program (and I'm only in week 7, so this should NOT happen already :-/). But the thing is, I didn't do yoga once in this last week...

Sometimes life kicks in hard - and this week, I couldn't help it. I let life grab me and pull my head up into the clouds where nothing is important and nothing is really real. I know, yoga would help me to get more real right now, but sometimes it's just not the time for reality. I'll get there again, eventually - but for now, the only thing I really can do, is to "go with the flow".

Sometimes we have to leave the clear path (or the program) and get lost. And when it has come to this, the only thing there is to do, is feel, feel and feel - Is the thing, I'm experiencing good for me? Am I making others happy right now? Is there fear or anger? And if yes, are they necessary or can I give them up and be open?

And we can ask all those questions on the mat as well!
And I REALLY recommend for us to do yoga, when we are healthy and able to focus - maybe not, when our heads are in the clouds... ;-)

have fun and be happy, everybody! <3

Sonntag, 10. Februar 2013

6th week - finally home...

This week I went to my favourite yoga studio - my yogi-homebase so to say - for the first time this year! It was exactly how I had fantasised it: crazy, fun, hard work, good laughs and happy yoga-time. And for the first time in weeks I felt grounded again.

I used to think, I didn't need grounding so much and that the things that were routine in my life would hold me back from the oh-so-wonderfull life I could have. But the thing is... being free might be oh-so-wonderful at times, but worth nothing without the foundation a homebase can provide.

I think, it's often a matter of angle. Are there things in our lives holding us back? Or are they the homebase from where we can grow? If the first, do what you have to do! If the second, maybe life is just not so bad after all ;-)

In yoga, my homebase has been downward-facing dog for these few weeks - a place from where I can grow into all different kinds of poses and also a place where I can go back to and look inwards, literally...

What's your homebase in life? In yoga? Thank you for sharing! :-)

Have a good week!

PS: pose-wise I did the same thing as last week. So, no new pictures! ;-)

Sonntag, 3. Februar 2013

5th week - 'cause this is who I fucking am!

Dear People!

This week I could feel something happening with my being as a yoga-teacher, that has happend many many times before in my life: the quiet drift. The quiet drift happens after a few months whenever I start something new - I took acting classes, I drifted away from that quietly; I took spiritual healing classes, and drifted away from being a spiritual healer quietly. I could go on and on! And now with being a yoga-teacher?!

So, when I watched the beginning of yet another quiet drift my warning bells started ringing BIG TIME and I asked myself: Why, oh why, do I do this? Why do I drift away from things that were supposed to change my life? Things that I love? Things that were important to me?
And the answer? Self-love! :-)

Whenever I start something unusual I want people to approve of it - not just some people, ALL people! As in all 7 Billion of you guys should be able to find whatever I do cool, wonderful, great! And we all know: Not gonna happen!
And who's on the forefront of the ones that don't approve? Jep, that would be ME! I just can't be cool, wonderful, great enough for myself... until now I couldn't! ;-)

Now, I know: If I love myself, it's OK, if some people think, I'm just not cool enough! None of my business! I do the things I do - 'cause that's just who I fucking AM! :-)

Here are this week's pictures:

Utthita Parsvakonasana
Utthita Trikonasana
Virabhadrasana I
Virabhadrasana II
Parivrtta Trikonasana
Parsvottanasana
Prasarita Padottanasana I


Urdhva Prasarita Padasana
Paripoorna Navasana
Ardha Navasana
Salamba Sarvangasana
Halasana