Sonntag, 24. Februar 2013

8th week - the warrior and the bitch...

I've been in Austria for 10 days now to visit my family and friends - and it has been perfect! My days were tightly packed with fun and happy reunions and no time could've been wasted. And then there was this one incident when a dear friend of mine didn't show up...
I was upset and angry and very emotional - so I sat down to meditate and find out what it was that was REALLY going on.

And I realised, I was tired and ready to go to sleep and could have been happy about not having to meet anybody for that evening. But there was this other part of me, that just LOVED to be angry and feel rejected and have somebody to blame. (This is what Eckhart Tolle calls the "Emotional Pain Body" btw.) So I tried to let go of that lust for pain - and it was really really hard!

In Yoga, this week I had to add Warrior III pose to my practice - I'd known this pose before as a very hard and for me challenging balancing pose. And this is what I told myself: Oh my god, Warrior III! I hate balancing poses and I'm so terrible at balancing and ALWAYS fall out of every balancing pose. I will definetly fall out of Warrior III all the time! I'm just never going to get it right. Am I crap at yoga? ...
I lamented on and on and on - my dear Emotional Pain Body was happily active and couldn't get enough.

Again I tried to calm down and just do yoga - and I did it! I stayed in Warrior III and I fell out of Warrior III - and I realised, it doesn't really matter!
In yoga - as in life - the only thing that matters is the now. No preparation for dreadful things or blowing things out of proportion needed! With this in mind, happiness comes natural! And so does Warrior III over time :-D

Much Love!

PS: I will post the pictures of the new poses soon - let me get back home first! ;-) <3

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